My darling boy,
Today at 8:29 p.m., you will be two years old. I am so blessed and thankful to have had you in my life for the past two years. I am so undeserving of such a wonderful gift. I look at you every day and wonder to myself, “how did I get so lucky?” Why God chose me to be your mother, what he saw in me to grant me such a blessing, I will never know, but I am eternally grateful to Him for entrusting you to my care.
You are the most amazing child I have ever known. Daily you astound me with all the things you know at such a young age. You love to read books and play with your toys. Right now you are in a big train phase. One of your biggest thrills is hearing the train a mile or so behind our house rumble by. It’s a fairly active track, but every time you look at me with those wide green-brown eyes and ask, “Mommy, you hear that choo choo train??” At the doctor today, you amazed the doctor by telling her that her reflex mallet was a triangle. She said that no other two-year old she has ever seen has been able to tell her that was a triangle. Now, I don’t hang around other two-year olds on a regular basis, but this little exchange confirmed my suspicions that you are a very precocious child. Later in the afternoon we walked through the aisles of REI, and you touched each jacket we passed and told me its color. It thrills my heart to see you learning and sharing your knowledge with us. It gives me hope that we are doing something right as parents, and that we have chosen well in who we have trusted to care for you during the day.
My sweet angel, you are so precious to me. When I’m having a bad day at work, all I have to do to lift my spirits is look at a picture of you or watch a video, and I’m happy again. If something at home is irritating me (usually a dog or the cat), your little smile melts away my frustration. You are such a snugglebug, and I eat up every second of it. If the choice is between folding laundry and snuggling on the couch with you for a little while, you will win hands down every single time. Because I know these days are fleeting and will be over before I know it. Soon enough, you won’t even want to be seen with me, let alone snuggle and be subjected to my smooches. You are already showing such an independent streak. Your favorite phrase right now is “let me do it!” Whether it is getting into and out of your carseat, getting a snack from the pantry, or getting undressed and in the bath, you want to do it yourself. I love this about you, but it makes me sad that one day you won’t need me to do things for you anymore. Pretty soon you will be helping your little brother do the things that you once needed our help with. I know you will be the best big brother ever. You already love your brother so much, and you are always gentle with babies younger than you. I know you will make the adjustment well and I am so happy that you will have a brother to grow up with and be your lifelong friend, but at the same time I am sad that our time as a family of three will be coming to an end soon. Having to share our time between you and your brother won’t be easy at first, but we will make sure that you still get all the individual love and attention you need and deserve, and that you are involved in every aspect of baby brother’s life.
You are such an exuberant child. Everything is amazing and wonderful to you. Seeing your excitement over things as small as a ladybug or a bird or a frog reminds me to try to look at the world through a child’s eyes and feel the joy and amazement that God intended us to feel about His creation. I feel the same way when I just look at you, or when you learn and do something new. Your world is still relatively new, but I hope you never lose that love of life and the world around you, because this world truly is a beautiful place when we slow down and take it in.
Cole, you will not know the depths of joy and happiness you have brought your father and me until you have a child of your own. Every day we wake up with a renewed sense of purpose to be the best parents we possibly can and to give you the life you deserve. Being your parents is the most gratifying, most fulfilling undertaking of our lives. Being your mother is what I was put on this Earth to do, and I will strive every day to be the best mother to you that I can be. And even as we bring another child into the world this year, I will never forget that it was you, sweet boy, who made me a mother. You who made me the happiest woman on this Earth. You who opened up my heart to more love than I ever thought was possible. You who first called me Mommy, and who I first called my Sweet Sweet Baby.
I love you, Buddy. To the moon and back.